Sunday Night Journal — September 12, 2010
It won’t surprise anyone who’s
read much of this series, or of my blog, to hear that I’ve
never been one to entertain nostalgic visions of a golden age of
childhood and youth. I was always inclined to be melancholy and
anxiety-ridden, and that doesn’t make for entirely happy
memories. Some years ago I saw a cartoon by Gahan Wilson (famous
for grotesque and macabre cartoons) which made me laugh out loud
because it summed up one aspect of my personality: a little boy
is walking down the sidewalk past two women, one of whom is
saying “There goes that little Wilson boy, all alone as
usual.” But the little Wilson boy is stark-eyed with fear
of monsters that only he can see hovering all around him.
That was far from the whole story, though,
and really there’s some ingratitude even in mentioning it,
because I’m sure my anxieties were disproportionate to
anything in my life that might have provoked them. If I
don’t look back toward a golden age, I certainly have at
least my share of golden moments. I think of my early teens, the
years from roughly twelve to fifteen, as a happy time, a time
when I had the good fortune to be a boy with two good friends,
and miles of countryside to run around in. I was thinking about
this the other day, as I read something about the suburban kids
whose lives are entirely organized and closed in: they’re
always at school, or in some organized activity, or in their
rooms watching tv or playing video games or wandering around on
the web or talking on the phone. The thought is almost
suffocating to me.
My friends were named Johnny and Lynn, and
they both lived in Belle Mina, which meant that I went to see
them more often than they to see me. And anyway, there was more
to do in Belle Mina, tiny village though it was. Johnny lived in
the same top floor of the same old house that I had lived in as
an infant. His father farmed, and was a bit rough—not mean,
but strict, and accustomed to using language that wasn’t
allowed in my family, apart from the occasional outburst by my
father. His mother had what I recognized even then as a somewhat
faded prettiness, and radiated kindness and warmth. And that
impression is not just a product of the youthful tendency to
think everyone else’s family is nicer than one’s own:
I think it was a universally held opinion, and when I saw her
again after a lapse of many years, when I was in my thirties, it
still struck me.
Lynn’s father ran a service station,
the old kind that you don’t see much anymore, that sold
gasoline and did repairs, major and minor. He must have had some
hired help, but I don’t recall anyone except Lynn and his
older brother being there consistently. He was a small, intense,
strong man, whom I remember as always wearing a coverall grimy
from the shop, and generally smiling if he had no particular
reason to do otherwise. Lynn’s mother was jovial and
friendly; I cannot summon an image of her in which she is not
smiling. (It is women like these, by the way, that I think of
when I see the pre-liberation 1950s and 1960s portrayed as
unrelentingly oppressive.)
My memories are always an imprecise jumble;
I can’t pin down exactly when or how often I spent time in
Belle Mina; I only know that it was in the period when we were
old enough to roam around on our own, but still young enough to
be in school together at Mooresville-Belle Mina (which is how I
arrived at the roughly-twelve-to-fifteen estimate).
What did we do? None of it sounds like much,
but we had a great deal of fun. A railroad line ran through Belle
Mina, and there was even a little train station there. I’m
not sure whether it was still in use at this time or not, but it
seemed to be empty most of the time. There was a platform
surrounding an office. The platform had a long ramp, and we used
to ride bicycles up it and then fly back down. Lynn’s house
was no more than a hundred feet or so from the tracks, and I
remember being startled awake by trains when I spent the night
there (which is a little odd, since a few miles east the same
track ran behind my house, though maybe three times as far
away—enough to make a difference in the sound,
obviously).
Half a mile or so east of Belle Mina is
Limestone Creek. In some places it would be called a river; I was
surprised once, on a trip out west, at the small size of some of
the bodies of water that were called rivers there. The creek was
slow, green, and muddy, thirty or forty feet across, maybe fifty
at its widest. We swam there, having walked or ridden bicycles
through the fields that lay between the town and the creek. There
was a wide shallow spot where there was a raft, a platform of
boards built over oil drums, which was moored in the middle of
the creek specifically for kids to jump off of.
Now and then we went camping along the
creek, hiking off through the fields, laden with a ridiculous set
of gear and food that we could not possibly have hiked very far
with—but then we didn’t need to hike very far: canned
goods, and a cast iron skillet for heating things like chili. I
don’t recall that I’d ever eaten chili before, and it
instantly became one of my favorite foods; only in recent years
has Hormel reduced their chili to something I no longer find very
palatable (or was it always this bad, and is it only I that have
changed?). We slept in the open the first few times; later on
Lynn got a pup tent which we used once or twice.
The first time we did this, we shared our no
doubt very limited store of scary stories with each
other—not ghost stories, exactly, just brief, frightening
sketches, urban (or in this case more or less rural) legends,
like the one about the man with the hook.
We went to sleep uneasily, and not long afterward were wakened by
a lot of crashing and stomping in the brush, and had a few
moments of real terror before we realized that we were being
disturbed by some farmer’s mule coming down to drink from
the creek.
When we were a bit older—at least
fourteen, I suppose—many of us got motor bikes. Lynn, if I
remember correctly, was the first: he had one of the little
red-and-white Honda 50s (Honda’s first presence in the U.S.
market, as far as I know), barely fast enough to ride in traffic,
but exciting for us. My father had a standing offer to his
children that he would match money we earned toward the purchase
of something expensive; that’s how my brother and I got our
Daisy Golden Eagle BB guns. I’m not sure now how I came up
with the hundred and fifty dollars or so that were my half of the
cost of the slightly sportier Honda 50, a black and chrome
version that looked somewhat more like a motorcycle. We rode
those bikes all over the southeast corner of Limestone County,
and, amazingly, never had a serious accident. The worst I
remember happened before I got my own bike. I sometimes rode an
old Cushman scooter that belonged to some relative of
Lynn’s, and one day we were playing chase on the dirt roads
of the state agricultural experiment farm. I was in the lead,
and, having just made a sharp left turn, took advantage of the
angle to look back and see where the others were. When I looked
again at the road in front of me I saw a barbed-wire gate
stretched across it, no more than twenty feet or so away. I
remember vividly the instant of hopeless panic; it was far too
late to stop, though I suppose I slowed myself a bit, and I went
right through the gate. But it must not have been very securely
fastened: it gave way and I landed in the dirt with no more than
a few scratches and bruises, nor was the scooter much worse for
the crash: it had looked pretty beat-up already, and it still
worked, so no harm done.
I remember reading Mad magazine at
Johnny’s house, and listening to the crazed southern humor
of Brother Dave Gardner. I remember—and this was later,
after Johnny’s family had moved from Miz Tolley’s
house to one of their own—the three of us in Johnny’s
room, reading aloud to each other from From Here to
Eternity, flipping through it looking for the bad words and
the sexually suggestive scenes, laughing hysterically at the
former, which we had never seen in print, and being fascinated by
the latter. We were still half-innocent, preoccupied just short
of obsession with girls and sex, but not being entirely sure how
it all worked.
On a few occasions we took the train to
Decatur on a Saturday afternoon to see a movie. It was possible
for me, in Greenbrier, to flag down a passenger train that would
not otherwise have stopped (there was a little platform, and a
sign that said “Greenbrier,” and if anyone was
standing on it when the train came by it would stop.) Johnny and
Lynn would get on at Belle Mina. It was a longish walk to the
Princess Theater from the station in Decatur, but that was ok.
The only movie I specifically remember seeing on one of these
trips was Teenagers from Outer Space, a title which seems
a little prophetic now. Sometimes we stopped on the way back to
the station and looked at guitars in the music store. Johnny and
I were fascinated by guitars, and he had a real Fender electric,
and an amplifier, of which I was deeply envious.
Most of this companionship ended when we
graduated from Mooresville-Belle Mina at the end of the ninth
grade, in 1963. For various reasons specific to each family, the
three of us all went to different high schools (one could choose
back then): Lynn to Decatur, Johnny to Tanner, which was where
most of our classmates went, and I to Athens. It became more
difficult and less frequent for us to visit each other. Our lives
had begun to diverge permanently.
But Lynn and I were still hanging out
together, still riding around on our motorbikes, when the Beatles
appeared in 1964 (I would not be 16, and able to drive, until
that fall). And when A Hard Day’s Night came out we
went to see it in Decatur at the Princess. Afterwards, full of
the movie’s whimsical high spirits, we rode our bikes
crazily—riding in circles in the street, running up on the
sidewalks, getting all the speed we could out of those tiny
engines once we got out of town and onto the dark highway, driven
by a wild exhilaration that we couldn’t have explained.
Light On Dark Water 
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