Light On Dark Water

I was working on a post earlier today but didn’t have time to finish it, and may not tomorrow, so, briefly:

A remark from a priest seen on Facebook on Thursday: “I thought I was having an epiphany this morning but it was transferred to Sunday.”

This evening my wife and I were shamefully late for Mass. We deserved to be escorted to the front pew and mocked, but fortunately that’s not done. We sat on a bench in the lobby with a woman and a girl, presumably mother and daughter and presumably also having been quite late to Mass, though not as late as we were. (I know “lobby” is not the right word, but this is a fairly modern building and that’s what it feels like. Fortunately, for the kind of architecture it is, the building is not unpleasant.) The doors were closed but there’s a speaker in the lobby which is wired to the priest’s microphone. That made for a slightly odd effect, since we could hear the priest very well, and during the hymns a few voices from people who were especially close to the priest or especially loud, including one especially loud but not very tune-capable one, and not much else. The choir was audible but muffled.

Feeling that we really ought not to receive, we remained where we were during communion. During that ten minutes or so I couldn’t hear anything much except the soft near-whisper of the priest: Body of Christ. Body of Christ. Body of Christ. I could see people leaving and returning to the pews, including a little boy who looked no more than eight and is in a wheel chair and seemed eager. So many people, so many unique little worlds full of unique and yet universal thoughts and cares and hopes and pleasures. 

It was quite beautiful to kneel there while that was going on, to watch the people, to hear Body of Christ. Body of Christ. Body of Christ, on and on, like little waves splashing quietly on a shore. 

The choir sang “What Child Is This?” As you probably know, the tune is an old English folk one called “Greensleeves,” and no words of mine can do justice to its beauty, which will last as long as music does. But I had never given any thought to the English words written for it. I had unthinkingly supposed that they were traditional, too, or at any rate anonymous. But they were written in the 19th century by William Chatterton Dix, and they are extremely well-wrought. Since I was old enough to notice and understand them I’ve loved these two lines:

Good Christian, fear, for sinners here
The silent word is pleading.

I think it’s that paradox of the silent word that gives me such a sense of reverence bordering on awe. “Fear”? Isn’t that out of place? No, not if we really grasp what’s going on. And I always notice that it’s “Christian,” singular. Not a collective but you, me.